MY LIFE

MY LIFE
SO TODAY MY OLDEST DAUGHTER JORDAN IS GETTING A TASTE OF WHAT IT MEANS FOR MOM TO BE WORKING EVENINGS WHEN SHE ASKED IF A FRIEND CAN STAY OVER TONIGHT. I SAID NO BECAUSE IT IS NOT FAIR FOR ME TO ADD ANOTHER CHILD FOR MY MOM AND DAD TO WATCH ON TOP OF MY OWN EVEN IF IT IS ONLY FOR A SHORT TIME. HER RESPONSE WAS THAT I AM ALWAYS AT WORK. WHICH MADE ME FEEL REALLY CRAPPY. BUT WAIT THIS WAS ONLY MY SECOND FULL EVENING OF WORK. BOTH ARE SO SPOILED. SO I OFFERED FOR HER FRIEND TO STAY ON SATURDAY NIGHT AND SHE INFORMED ME THAT THIS WEEKEND WAS WHEN SHE MIGHT BE CAMPING OUT WITH ANOTHER FRIEND. I TOLD HER THAT SHE HAD A DECISION TO MAKE. SO SHE WILL BE THINKING ABOUT IT OVER THE NEXT COUPLE OF DAYS. IT IS FUNNY HOW IF THEY WANT TO GO TO A FRIEND OR MAM-MA AND PAP-PAS HOUSE AND THEY ARE LEAVING ME FOR ANY PERIOD OF TIME THATS FINE BUT IF I EVEN THINK OF GOING TO THE MAILBOX ON MY OWN I GET STATIC. WHATS UP WITH THAT?

ANYHOW I GOT TO WAIT A FEW TABLES TONIGHT. EVERYTHING THAT I DO THERE , EXCEPT THOSE DARN ORDER TICKETS, IS NOTHING I DONT DO AT HOME---SERVE FOOD, GET DRINKS, CLEAN TABLES, WORK WITH A BUNCH OF KIDS, PUT THINGS BACK IN ORDER. ONLY AT BOB EVANS I GET TIPS. YEAH I KEEP TRYING TO TELL MYSELF THAT ITS NOT SO BAD AND REALLY IT ISNT---I AM JUST SO HUNG UP ON WANTING TO BE HOME THAT I JUST CANT SEEM TO QUITE COME TO TERMS WITH IT. I GOT MY PERMANENT SCHEDULE AND I WILL BE WORKING TUES-FRIDAY EVENINGS. FOR NOW ,BUT I HAVE NEWS FOR THEM WHEN JORDAN STARTS SOCCER THERE WILL BE SOME CHANGES IN THAT. I'LL KEEP YOU POSTED